I can only say that it is a severe form of grief. Having to wake up every day is more of a tedious task rather than feeling of hope, joy, excitement, etcetera, that a normal person with a normal upbringing would feel. I start feeling this way when I encountered this person, one uneventful evening just like any birthday I have a trick or treat can be heard from outside the house the neigboring children are to and fro from house to house I decided to go outside for a change of state not to mention that it is my uncelebrated birthday again this year, "trick or treat" I heard a slightly pitch voice when I glanced over my shoulder a little girl with a delighted face is smiling while looking directly and intently at my face. No one ever stare at me like that before and my emotion and knowledge can't comprehend what to make of it and I just ask "Do you know me?" a moment of hesitation "No maybe" it is now brighter than the pumpkin lantern that this girl don't even know me "Okay since you don't know me here's a one dollar and go buy yourself a treat" Not long after the night slowly fade and I went to sleep reminiscing what just happend today the next day I was greeted good morning by the same slightly pitch voice a surge of horror and shock overwhelmed my body I can't even utter a word it is more of a surprise than a trick or treat "Good morning to you too" she said that she's just passing by and that she knows that I live around the area and would like to greet me before she leaves "That's really sweet of you but you don't even know me" since then every time we would see each other at the street, local store, public places, we were sharing stories and I even offered her to visit me on the day of Christmas so that I can give her something for Christmas everytime I see her I can feel that there's a genuine smile in my face I know the feeling because it is something I don't show often a sensation of feeling happy. Prolly for the reason that she is just so innocent that captivated my troubled mind I can't explain and I don't know how I'm this excited from just thinking we will see each other again tomorrow or so I thought December 25th the day of Christmas I haven't seen her anywhere from place she always hang out with and to the place I often see her maybe she visits her relatives or grandparents for Christmas probably I'll see her tommorow December 26th crystal clear not even a shadow of K can be seen anywhere again I started to panic I breathe heavy and faster even though I'm not out of breath not being able to see her one day I can endure but for the whole weekend that is torture I ask around the town children if anyone see K and some say they did and others don't though through investigation others said that they did see K turns out always a different person I started to be more specific and while explaining the appearance of K my voice is turning up surely out of frustation or desperation to see K but no children seems to knew K and even doubt such a girl exist I said "Guys you even trick or treat to my place K is among with you" and a child answer we saw you that day talking to no one we ought to get far away as possible from you, we thought you were out of your mind. I was dumbfounded when I heard that sentence especially that talking to no one, is K a manifestation of my mind the opposite characteristic of everything I am. Imagination indeed not, perhaps she just miss last christmas that I invite her to visit me this year I'll wait.
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