Ever been afraid to speak up because you regretted your actions ?

[Lillyflow]

I recently have been made to feel quite a lot of shame because of my behavior. 

I confess- I am a wild woman at heart. I say crazy things - I do even crazier things sometimes. 

But recently a weird thing happened. 

Someone blatantly used my friendship to collect funds and always with promises of the returns blah blah. 
My point is- I behaved regrettably. I did. and because of the way I behaved- I felt shy to say something about how I had been wronged. 

But I am not going to do this. I am going to own up to my bad behavior- because then the only thing that remains- is the problem which is money that I need. 

Not my choices to act irrationally and overdo it or to trust someone who did not earn the trust .

I do not deserve to be humiliated because of my kindness- and I do not any longer fear that my crazy side will be aired out for all to see. Know why? 

I confess it to you all now. Here. I am crazy. I do regrettable things while on tilt. I do attention seeking stunts that are not ok- but I would never just hurt someone . I would never. 

 

I encourage anyone who is being extorted or conned or exploited to let the fear go and be good to yourself and we wont judge you based on your lapse in good choices. We are friends and we are practically family here. 

Please do not do what i did. Do not allow someone to stomp all over you just because you felt afraid that they would bad mouth you to the crowd, 

The crowd is mostly made of good people. We should have each others back. 

I have your back if you have mine. 

And I won't run through town naked in the snow- ever again. 

 

( that last part is a joke. I will definitely run naked in the snow, Just not this week, or this month) 

[Shaniqua]

Thats very big of you Lori to write that.  Thank you for sharing this post with us.
im frankly at a loss of words, very beautiful words... Very touching indeed.
i am not good with words ... but wanted to say you are awesome and we are  lucky to have you here... 
we all need to have some more humility (not sure if correct usage of word there but... ) ♥iu

[williamshennie9]

Stay who you are Lori, never change that  People will always try to take advantage of kindness, especially over the internet where they are autonomous. The world needs kindness and love, and sadly many people who are too kind, end up blocking people off because they take advantage. In turn, they build up walls around them.

I hope that you stay strong through this time Lori, and never change who you are at the core